On Deck Circle
An Entirely Other Day
The showing of care and support for my ailments has been touching. Too many folks to list here you know who you are. Thanks to Alwin's advice, I feel much better physically today. Now maybe I can focus energies on taking care of my mental health. Appointment with the pshrynk is next Tuesday. I know all the questions ... hopefully she has some answers ... although, she will probably ask all the questions ... so I better have some answers ready too, y'know, just in case.
I think I got your clue Joe. Thanks for playing. ;-)
From Directories to Development Tools, Mac OS X Is Real Unix and it's available now. Review by Greg Knauss of An Entirely Other Day fame.
The SANS Institute uncovered a dangerous new worm that scans the Internet looking for Linux computers with a known vulnerability. It infects the vulnerable machines, steals the password file (sending it to a China.com site), installs other hacking tools, and forces the newly infected machine to begin scanning the Internet looking for other victims.
From Dave Winer: "Radio UserLand has a feature [WCOTD] that dramatically improves the performance of Weblogs.Com. Instead of using the centralized server to render the list of changed sites, it reads the XML version and does all the heavy lifting on your desktop computer." I tried it; works as advertised and very fast. Windows and Mac. Save some load on the Weblogs.com server.
Why is this man grinning? Well, it's his special day. Happy Birthday Dad! He was born in 1927, so let's see, that would make him, ummm, 29. Right? Betcha he's playing golf with his buds today. Mom will no doubt spoil him rotten, that's OK, he deserves it. Why not send him a mizKitty card to celebrate. His name is Bob, and his email is [deleted]. Pssst. Don't tell anyone. He only wants the good spam. Oh, be sure to tell him what a great son he has. He'll probably think you mean Dave, but that's cool.
"The typographic 56 site gives Typographic Journal readers and all Web surfers a chance to see what can be achieved with typography directly in the digital space. Inspired by the journal's theme, Signs, Signals and Directions, the Web site comprises 20 experiments and playthings that invite the user to explore and push the boundaries of conventional typography on a computer screen and not on a piece of paper." (via NewMedia)
What is effective Web design, and where can you find it? Alan K'necht interviews six gurus of the GUI for Builder.com and hears some very different gospels preached by some of the Web's most renowned design prophets. Check out what they say about finding the Holy Grail of effective Web site design.
[In early February] "Amazon.com introduced a system similar to PayPal to allow consumers to make payments to Web sites, which it calls the Amazon Honor System. Junkbusters [has] criticized the implementation of the program, which it said provides Amazon with tracking data about surfer's movements on participating Web sites, even if they don't use or notice the feature, and even though Amazon claims they don't currently store the information. Amazon deliberately chose to require participating sites to have the click-on graphic served from Amazon's web site rather than the participating site, so Amazon gets a cookie identifying the surfer. The surfer may not be aware that the information is being reported to Amazon." (link via Dreama)
I am sick, and I don't know what's wrong. I am physically and mentally exhausted all the time. Twelve hours sleep a day doesn't seem like enough. I've only made it to work three days in the past two weeks, not a good thing during this period of transition. I awake with diarrhea every single morning. As a result, I've become dehydrated, so I'm drinking lots of Gatorade and water. I have hot and cold flashes. I am lethargic and have no motivation. I don't want to leave the house. My wife is angry, not so much with me, but that I keep slipping down the slope. Earlier this week, I convinced my doctor to cut back the Celexa from 30 milligrams to 20. He's given up treating my physical symptoms and has referred me to a shrink. I'm tired, I'm hurting, and I'm confused. I can't hold it in any longer. Call this my cry for help.
"This was a fun project. My topic was a bit broad and not easy to find sites, but I learned a lot and was inspired myself. I wanted to know how graphic designers refreshed their creativity and got inspired. Especially freelancers. Since everyone is inspired in different ways, some of us are visual, others like to read, and some just like to get out, take a break and see new sights/sites. I tried to keep this in mind when surfing. Some of the sites are fun, humorous and downright wacky. I hope you enjoy them." Cheryl Aronson (link via Bozzie)
A GAO report says that last year the IRS's e-filing system had vulnerabilities that could have allowed unauthorized viewers to see and alter taxpayer information. Among the security concerns listed in the report are the agency's failure to encrypt data, a lack of an adequate intrusion detection system, and network controls that had been shut off to improve processing time.
Copyright © 1979 Pink Floyd The Wall
There's a new look and focus at Speech Therapy. Moving to a magazine format, the topic at hand is Personal Boundaries. If you spend your days as a "people pleaser" to the detriment of your own sensibility, have a read.
John McCabe on Being a Computer Professional. Having fallen into the career myself some 27 years ago, completely by accident but loving every minute, I like the control man has over the machine. Unlike interaction with other humans, the computer is logical and doesn't fight back. John wonders if that's about to change.
I try not to complain much. It really doesn't serve a useful purpose. However, I was going to talk about not feeling very well lately at least until I read this by Cheryl (March 19th entry). I have nothing to complain about. (via VFTH)
The lovely Annie Warhol eyecons at left are compliments of Ann Stretton, otherwise known as Ann-S-Thesia. She's featuring me, yes l'il ole me, as the Eyebalm Eyeblog Eyecon of the week. Imagine that. Thanks Ann.
"It turns out that you're two when you learn that ice cream does that."
My prayers are with you today, and always.
The outpouring of kind email and support for last week's reminiscence of my alcohol rehab has been very rewarding and humbling. If I can convince one suffering alcoholic to seek help if I can persuade just a single loved one of an abusive alcoholic relationship that there are alternatives then I will sleep better at night. I'm not a crusader, nor an evangelist. I'm just an ego-maniac with an inferiority complex looking for a little peace and serenity. Thanks to all who recognized that.
Sunday means Bluzz of the Week. Through this feature, I'm searching for the brightest, funniest, most controversial or otherwise intriguing comments from the previous week's forums, journals and blogs. Personal sacrifice for the well-being of others may be the noblest determination. It will wrench your gut and weaken your spirit. When it involves a child, it will cleave your heart out. If you find a true treasure you'd like to nominate for future Bluzz of the Week, even if you wrote it yourself, please let me know.
Inflatable Sheep and Other Passing Fancies. There's a weblog title for you. Michelle Johnson is a former Netscape employee caught up in the dotcom break down. She has a delightful sense of humor, a beautiful design aesthetic, and a void in her soul. Faced with a decision in 1979 that would test the mettle of saints, Michelle is left with one brief vision for her memories. She cried tears of strength and resolve. Hope, faith and charity are alive in this courageous woman. Here are a few excerpts from "Happy Birthday Billy" (the March 14th entry).
"Today my son, whom I call Billy, turns 22. I've only seen him one time when he was a day old with a pane of glass separating us. A permanent ache in my heart is what I have lived with all this time."
"Twenty-two years ago, feeling totally abandoned by friends, family, and God, I had to make the hardest decision I've ever made while pregnant in a shelter for battered women with my 1-1/2 year old daughter in tow. I knew I had to give him up because emotionally and mentally and financially I was unable to be a mother to another child..."
"...I've long since written a letter to him that was never mailed. Right before he turned 18, I filed all the paperwork so that my consent and contact info was in his files if he should ever look. I told him about his sister, grandparents, and even left my url. Just in case... But I can't actively look for him. Not yet. I don't want to impose on his life. I don't want to chance hurting him. Not for anything in this world."
"And so I wait. And so I grow sad every year at this time, my arms aching to hug the boy I've never touched. Happy Birthday, Billy. Your mama loves you very much." L. Michelle Johnson
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